Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Let The Bully BE

Neither the situation nor the people can be changed by the intervention of an outsider's. If they are changed, that change must come from within.
-Bottome Phyllis

I wondered why I was always a bully, or someone whose mission was over me. One of my first encounters was in middle school, I faced freckle girl muscular (as polite as possible, with details being) made the mistake of calling a bad word, and since then her I was tortured mission. At the end of each school day, bells ring, closest to the driver seat before I get out of class and I was hoping just to do the sprint race, in case he would strangle me, or I decide to hit the took the eye with a pencil. I like my house the bus stop nervously clenched in hand with the keys to learn, sitting, I was pounding fast like a bullet going home, I was opening the door in time to get hold of my Prayers bully me and ram Asphalt will be in my head. I was nervous and scared of the bully, and he knew it and loved every minute of it. I was a little girl pencil leg, I was so weak that I would wear leggings under my jeans, just normal size appear. I did not stand a chance against the raging bull, I will be snapped in half, and I was well aware of this, so I worry about the existence spent several days with my stomach in knots Middle school.

The need for a little sympathy for my father in a desperate moment, are looking only want to rescue and save me, I asked him what I should do, and he looked at me, and love "Well said, with the most difficult if the same thing keeps happening over and over again for you, it is something you" should have been doing. Those words my heart was crushed like an iron fist, it was as if the world crumbled around me and I was the only one left. The last thing I wanted to hear, how in the world did I do to deserve this? How was I responsible? It felt very unfair.

Years went by and I found myself different genders, shapes and sizes in the "bully" face. In the work force, I constantly found myself with that same person to head needs to be right, would need to win, heads are going to be the moral one. Luckily we were fighting your mind now, I no longer had to worry about being hit, I had to worry about instead of being released! Haha.

I remembered the words my father said many years ago, and I thought it was what I was doing the threatening situation? It has been said that your life is a reel that same relationship problems and circumstances and make plays unless you do something different or to change your attitude is like. There are a great quote by Wayne Dyer, says that "if you change the way you see things, things you see change."

I was constantly fighting for justice, fighting for what I considered the right. I felt like I was being attacked by everyone, constantly on the defensive, taking everything personally. I was also constantly getting revenge. Exactly when, how others choose to work and practice to have absolutely nothing to do with me, nor my business. This to me anyone how to live or work or how to be told is not working. It is not my place to interfere in their lives. Their lives are their own. I was only fire with fire and the situation made worse by getting involved. I was better than a bully, I'm forced to think like them, no matter how his vision was trying to type as well as I thought was my intent is always the same , they get to see my way.

I learned that the only positive thing I can do in these situations is to stay true to yourself and have compassion for that person, and how they must feel inside, and they want peace and love . What is all.

Now I know how much energy the battle away from me and I do not do anything. I can put my energy, and a loving and peaceful world much like farming more productive ways to use.